To be or not to be

Hey,
Its been an year that this blog of mine hasn't been updated! A year that has surprised me widda lot of good changes.
Writing for me never meant to update anyone. It’s purely a strong run of emotion that forces you to scream through words! For the first time trying to scream by hand!

The Thought of losing someone.

Few days back, I threw my phone in anger while arguing with my brother,
The argument faded in few hours but the regret of losing my phone went prolong.

I lost touch with an old friend because I was blessed with an ego to figure what went so wrong.
I repent my fingers that types so fast to complete a missing argument on texts
and not realizing may be silence for the moment would suit the best.

A broken lie, years back took a sudden reality in my life
Wondering am I suppose to take care of all such things or avoid as they are passing by.

A dog that was sleeping under my car depart his life when I reversed,
Unable to figure was it a moment of sadness or guilt for months.

The raising expectations from the people you love,
The fight that scares you to lose it up.

The mood that swings with a slight of negative thought
And screws the happiness of even things that I haven’t yet bought.

I say I don’t do it intentionally but the fact is I yet repeat it.
Knowing that God is within me, I pray selfishly when I feel defeated.